Here's to faith, perseverance, health and kicking cancer's ass.
And for this, I am thankful.
Celebrating the LAST treatment |
Finding thankfulness in love, life and parenting with a few adventures along the way.
Celebrating the LAST treatment |
As a kid, I remember vividly my parents taking me to high school football games. They were so fun!! To be honest, it was likely the time in the bleachers that was the source of the fun...cheering along with the cheerleaders, dancing to the marching band, and standing down along the fence of the field to get an even better view.
I wondered tonight, as we sat in the stands of our high school homecoming game, if perhaps the way fun is found at football games is timeless?
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Tonight I was struggling with the guilt that often comes along with being a working mom. It's a rough space to be.
You see, when we chose to move back to Michigan, a big piece of our decision was based around the parenting flexibility working completely for myself would offer. What we didn't realize, however, was that working for myself would open doors that we couldn't have even begun to imagine. And so, here I was tonight...wrestling internally with the plight of so many working moms: loving your job, loving your kids, finding the balance between putting 110% into both.
So what prompted this episode of guilt this evening?
Today was one of the best career days of my adult life. I couldn't WAIT to share all the details with my family! Yet today, I also missed bedtime with the kids for the second time this week. Instead of sharing adventures of the day, there were tears, when are you coming home's and I miss you's.
My heart broke.
There is nothing more that I want in this world than for our children to feel loved and supported. Nothing. But do you know what else I want for Nico and Sofia? I want them to see a woman who is following her passions, making sacrifices, and committing to good and impactful work. I want them to see that independence also requires teamwork with those you love. I want them to see that while there is huge facet of my pursuits that are personally fulfilling, even more are designed to fulfill the dreams of our family.
This is a tall order but I am wholly committed to it!
I walked in the quiet house tonight to a husband sitting on the couch with a glass of wine already poured. He filled me in on his day which began with his bi-weekly men's bible study. He shared how they learned about Saul and his stories of being willing to sometimes just pick up and move on, trusting that God has a reason for challenges and moving forward without guilt. When I asked Chris how they connected these readings back to their own lives, he simply said, "We talked about you and then we prayed for you...for peace, for releasing yourself of mom guilt, and strength."
My, my. It was just what I needed to hear. You know, kids are exceptionally resillient. Nico and Sofia will wake up tomorrow and be cheerful, ready to have our special morning time together before school. They will also feel my love for them and see my excitement for heading off to work.
They'll be just fine. God truly does work in mysterious ways.
And for this, I am thankful.
Our First Weekend in Denver 2005 |
Family Vacation, Mackinac Island 2015 |
All day today my body ached. It wasn't the the sick kind of ache...but the kind that makes you ask yourself over and over again why you're sore. (I may have even grunted when getting up from my desk chair at one point.)
All morning I wracked my brain working my way through all of yesterday's happenings. I didn't work out or even lift anything heavy. Not only was I feeling OLD because I was sore but now I was also exhibiting this magnificent lack of memory!
And then it hit me. Cartwheels.
I was walking down a hallway at work and giggling like I was 8 again as I remembered back to yesterday evening when Sofia "double dog dared" me to do a one-handed cartwheel and then really show what I had by doing a round off. The sun was setting, Chris was cooking dinner, the air was cool, and my daughter and I played gymnastics in the backyard. Perfection.
I am so stinkin' sore today.
And for this, I am thankful.
Tonight I was asked to give a toast during happy hour. I'm not sure I've ever been asked to do that before in a public setting. All of a sudden, the strangest thing happened...I got nervous! When it comes to speaking, that kind of thing doesn't happen to me. Ever.
I took a breath and with absolute clarity, realized what was happening: these people I stood with...my colleagues, my friends...are people who inspire me so deeply, that I was terrified I wouldn't be able to find the right words to express these emotions. But, after I took a second and looked at their smiling faces, I knew just what to say...
"Cheers to the kindest, hard-working, collaborative, inspirational, brilliant, and weird people I've ever had the pleasure to work with."
I am so proud to be part of this team.
And for this, I am thankful.
Sofia was very serious about her duties this morning. |
3rd Grade and Young 5's |
We have trees!...and a yard. :) |
Learning about pulleys at COSI. Spring 2015 |
Breakfast date with our little dude. Spring 2015 |
A major bonus of being back in MI...MSU Football Games! Fall 2014 |
I wear grown up shoes now. :) |